I was really fed up yesterday, for a variety of reasons, and too distracted to do something. Anything could happen, which means there’s a horrifying possibility of it all going WRONG. So I decided to go for a walk, I mean driving, or at least having a cup of milo in the evening. Yup, it’s totally normal. But, still I wasn’t clear myself really. I’m sure I will use some of what I’ve already experiences. It feels really awful to remember something I know isn’t right to think about. It feels equally awful, if not worse, to look at something that I remember and thought at the time was right, and to realise now that it actually sucks. But those awful feelings are there for a reason. It’s because I made the mistake, and now I’ve learned from it, so yeah, I can make it better. And I will make mistakes. I have to. It might make me feel better, though, to know that those mistakes are necessary.
This is the last.
So I’m feeling a little bit sorry for myself.